Tuesday, February 16, 2010

25 Years of "I can't waits"

Tomorrow's my infamous 25th Birthday and I guess it has caused me to do a lot of thinking about my first quarter of a century. I am sad to admit that I have wasted the majority of those 25 years with multiple "I can't waits."

-You know...it all starts with the "I can't wait until I grow up. I can't wait until I graduate, until I get married.....". But the reality is that in the end I always look back on all the times I said "I can't wait" and I just wish I could have them back...okay maybe not all of them...but I do wish I would have lived more in the moment.

-It's not just my personal life, but in my parent and married life too. "I can't wait until he picks up his socks....I can't wait until I'm pregnant, can't wait to have this baby, can't wait 'til this kid sleeps through the night." The fact is, I did this with Kaylie, and I don't know what happened to my baby...why did I waste all those precious moments (time I can never have back) saying "I just can't wait?" I've recently caught myself doing this with Aaron too, and I've decided that I seriously need to stop.

-The reality is that one day (before I know it) they'll be off to kindergarten, college, mission, married...gone! Every day is a gift, take it or leave it, and I need to quit leaving it, and take it for everything it's worth.

-Everyday, even the real tough ones, are worth it, a memory good or bad, they are all a chapter in the story of life (don't worry I'm not getting sappy on ya.)

-Yesterday, I woke up saying "I can't wait until things go right for us, until we get our debt paid off, until we have a good job, until I don't have to worry anymore..." The truth is there will always be worries and troubles, but there won't always be tomorrows. So tomorrow (and for the next 25 years) I'm going to wake up and say "Yesterday was awesome, but today will be better, and forget tomorrow because I'll get to it later."

-So my 25th Birthday goal is to live the next 25 years without the "I can't waits" Because frankly...I can wait, and I'll love every minute of it!!!


Aleisha said...

Happy Birthday Krista!!!

Heidi said...

Krista, Happy Birthday! I hope you have a great day. Those were great words of wisdom. We all need to remember that we CAN wait! Thanks for sharing. We sure miss you guys down here. Hope everything is going well.

Rachel said...

Happy birthday Krista!

You are so wise...I can relate to you sometimes with the "I can't wait..." mentality. And you are right. Babies grow FAST!

Miss you!

Amber said...

I hope you had a Happy Birthday Krista! Everything you said reminds me of one of my favorite quotes: "If we live only for tomorrow, we'll eventually have a lot of empty yesterdays." - President Monson

Aleisha said...

happy Birthday Krista! I can't wait for Jake to fix my blinds! said that one alot! We have a broken blind right now actually, I'm saying it again already.

Andrea said...

I totally agree with you...I have been doing my share of "I can't waits" especially when Anna was a baby. Thanks for reminding me that I need to enjoy every day, including the ones that involve me being large and pregnant! ha ha